Exactly five years ago today, I boarded an early morning flight from Minneapolis to Kansas City that would change the direction of my life forever.
God had a plan that I didn’t know about and of course He caught me off guard with it.
Thankfully, I had reached a point of spiritual maturity in my life that I could now actually trust and believe that God truly did have a plan for me. But I was sure the plan did not include a soul mate. After a couple of tough relationships, I had reached the point of contentment of being a single mom and no longer seeking out a husband.
Contentment led me to rent out my house in Fargo, move to my family farm and enroll my son Hunter in school there, leaving our cherished Christian school and the comforts of social, business and church circles in Fargo. This would allow Hunter to not have a babysitter, stay with a friend or have my parent’s drive 100 miles to stay with him every time I had business travel. It would increase my drive time but be simpler life for Hunter and me. I was still keeping a basement bedroom and bathroom at my house that I could use when staying in Fargo and the rent income would pay my monthly mortgage payment.
Since I had decided I was destined to be a single mom, this was the plan. Once I make a plan, I move forward…quickly. There is no waiting around and thinking about it. Putting Hunter first was my priority as he always had been since I gave birth to him three weeks before I started my freshman year of college. But now I was no longer going to consider marrying, having more children and was going to live my life to the fullest as a mother to Hunter and grow in my career.
Being a single, working mom in a world that often looked at me more as a statistic that a survivor, I had struggled with insecurity and doubt. I had longed for providing Hunter the family environment I had been raised in but the only thing missing from our life was the father living in our home. Hunter once even suggested he thought his friend “Jacob’s dad” would be a good dad for us. I assured him Jacob’s dad had a wife and three kids of his own but that he had a dad that didn’t live near us and that he was so fortunate and blessed to have his Grandpa Fred, Grandpa Sonny and uncles active in his daily life. It was the best life I could provide for him and finally I was content with the life I had worked hard to establish for the two of us.
Then I boarded the flight to Kansas City on July 11, 2005.
I love this post about how your life changed! I remember this time in your life as I was in the process of moving out of your house to Grand Forks. Can’t believe it has been five years!I love reading your blog as you are so open and honest! Hope to see you soon!
Thanks Lora! You were a big part of that time in my life and so supportive. Can’t wait to meet Lily soon!